i had no idea. everyone tells you your whole life that "you don't know what heartbreak is yet." and i didn't believe anybody until now. so now i know.
except i'm sure each time it'll get worse and worse and it'll break more and more and eventually i'll have to get an x-ray done and all they'll see is pieces all over the place.
sticking to my lungs, spattered on my intestines, floating through my bloodstream.. everywhere, they'll just see a conglomerate of separated heart matter. but that's life.
and you can't do a thing about it but suck it up until you die. find a way to get through every day anyhow. because everyone else is in pain too, mind you, so don't go feeling all special. you will not be some poor, pitiful pearl, missy. you just dry those tears and keep walking. keep working. keep breathing.
anyway, i suppose one day i might find someone who is able to do some closed-heart surgery on me, find most of the little pieces, and reassemble them into something maybe slightly resembling a heart, but those chances are slim, especially when you're human.
but i have hope. i have faith. and i will have serenity.
SERENITY NOW!
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