dancing it out?

actually kinda works...sometimes. unless 30-somethings with teen daughters are around. totally unrelated: swagger found an ad on craigslist about me tonight! insane. lol some guy i bagged for the other day with whom i talked about gnocchi, but who can't spell the word 'gnocchi' correctly, even though he purchased the stuff. he's 33. & probably very nice, but i'm not going there. i'll deal with that if he asks me out at work. there was a very cute guy at EC tonight, though.. he drove us to the car in his little golf-cart thing because it was snowing. he was kinda flirting with mom, possibly with me...she says. anyway, i am in no position to start a relationship with anyone, i'm practically unhinged. i was so manic today. & i was aware of it at the time. lol it was weird, i kept stopping myself abruptly from doing things. maybe i shouldn't use the term manic like it's some medical symptom i have.. i was just being a spaz. anyway, i danced it out, i guess. it did help, to just force myself not to care what anybody else thought, if anyone was looking at me. of course i always feel like everyone is but probably nobody is. lol that's a little comforting.. so i just kinda said, 'fuck it.' but now i have to get up in like less than 5 hours. not going to be fun. & then i'm babysitting rilo after work, probably kinda late. that sucks. lol oh well, though, she's fun. hafta make sure i bring everything. who says i can't create masterpieces in crayon? ha. sooooooo i should go to bed. goodnight.