so you'll be mine & i'll be yours & we'll be us again.

so we're back together. :) i guess. lol it's still complicated, i suppose.. but at least it's in motion.
i just finally realized that home is where you are, & that's enough for me. i love you & i don't want to be anywhere but in your arms. that's the only place where it feels okay to really be me.
& i know you don't care what i wear or how i act or what i say or how many zits i have or how long it's been since i've shaved my legs or how often i want to walk around naked because clothes feel restrictive. you don't care that i'm kind of a mess & my hair never works & i own so much stuff & i really don't like cleaning, but i'll do it anyway if you ever want me to. i know that i'm difficult to deal with & i never know what i feel like & i can't make decisions & i won't tell you what i'm thinking & all of that tries your nerves.. but you have to know, above all else, how much you mean to me. because you're pretty much it. :)
i'd never felt comfortable in my own skin until you touched my skin, & told me it was very nice skin indeed.
i'd never felt like i fit in until you fit me into your life & your heart.
i'd never felt the need to get out of bed in the morning & put up with all the lame that happens throughout the day. i still don't feel the need to get out of bed in the morning, but now that's because you're in the bed with me, & all i want to do is lay there with you all day.
i never thought anyone would be able to see past my scars & my excuses & my tears, until you saw them, looked through them, & told me what i needed to hear.
i never thought i could ever let anyone in so much. until i did. & there you were. & nothing came crashing down, & i didn't implode, & all the parallel universes didn't collide & pull everything into the black hole i was expecting. you were just there. & i liked it. :)
i love you. ♥